tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85524682024-03-07T12:55:34.411-05:00CheekynessThe half-witted, half-baked, half-mad ramblings of a widowed, forty-something, earth-loving, commuter-cycling, theatre-going, runner-girl Christ follower. Abandon seriousness, all ye who enter here.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.comBlogger1764125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-38526385065918888182023-01-01T22:16:00.001-05:002023-01-01T22:16:32.963-05:00Checking the Calendar<p><span style="font-family: verdana;">I thought I might get goals for the year thought about and written down today, because I guess I forgot when my anniversary is. I haven't done goals for the year by January 1 in two decades, first because this was a celebratory day for me and more recently because it's a day for... not mourning, exactly, because I'll be getting round to that soon enough, but more for a solemn gratitude. Some thoughts of what might have been with a thick overlay of thanks for 13 really great years. Would I have liked more years? Obviously. Does that stop me from appreciating what we had? Definitely not. </span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">After Chad and I shared the same couple of wedding pics on our social media year after year for a while, the last couple of years I've taken a few minutes with the photo albums on January 1 to choose pictures that I've not shared before, ones that can invite others in to enjoy the inherent joy of a wedding day. (This year, I missed. I thought I said something quite funny, but the first handful of Facebook reactions were all sad faces.) And as the calendar keeps pulling us farther and farther away from 2002, I get progressively more amazed at how young we were--the more so because in my combination of time, place, and faith community, getting married at age 23 was considered kind of late. Do you know how many relatives said at my wedding that they thought I was never getting married? </span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">Anyway, here we are cutting the cake, which was baked and assembled with care by my ridiculously talented auntie. The first time I saw this setup with the stairs and the fountain at a family wedding, I was blown away, but never thought of having such a thing myself until she and I were talking about my cake and she offered the fountain. I was thunderstruck and said yes so fast I think I might have broken the sound barrier.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikerVVWT5ZQBb069hg9T73hnONHvWwv5ZUnzLOCFUtzFttyORrzjY0FGMV_W7cImWgAIF02eW25pQtL4fmA1PEmB8X-w3Kamdd2uGONKzj5-qbRm0qdLPa1MalqsIdcX39waXPtJ-wAkNMbJVcYlY7MAxXrTBFeNIuzx45FiekCkZ9ANLUd7I/s1728/Wedding%20cake%20%231.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1728" data-original-width="1167" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikerVVWT5ZQBb069hg9T73hnONHvWwv5ZUnzLOCFUtzFttyORrzjY0FGMV_W7cImWgAIF02eW25pQtL4fmA1PEmB8X-w3Kamdd2uGONKzj5-qbRm0qdLPa1MalqsIdcX39waXPtJ-wAkNMbJVcYlY7MAxXrTBFeNIuzx45FiekCkZ9ANLUd7I/w432-h640/Wedding%20cake%20%231.jpg" width="432" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Why am I making that face? No idea. Why is Chad hanging on to my arm like that? Also no idea. See the glass of sparkling cider on the lower left? My brother put all the cider bottles in the church fridge two days before the wedding with the labels turned toward the back, so our grandma would assume we had something alcoholic and would freak out without bothering to investigate. And so she did, exactly on cue. It's like she <i>wanted</i> to be upset.</span><br /></td></tr></tbody></table><br /> <table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1rPLJ4nMOovnMb5DD7dXL8CFbDBBijKgVUBGTJ6kr1-j0YZU2qQURfUx6cFRLklVK1R4La-1ZFhC2SB43jnI0htDiE_xNO352qEm9JaTUYvfP8eyXRXG7qjkEfeq7-qEBVAFDWXa5xjYrsluc2o3XDHJet567514lmXhkmXn1_GeYz5MgBDg/s1760/Wedding%20cake%20%232.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1173" data-original-width="1760" height="266" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1rPLJ4nMOovnMb5DD7dXL8CFbDBBijKgVUBGTJ6kr1-j0YZU2qQURfUx6cFRLklVK1R4La-1ZFhC2SB43jnI0htDiE_xNO352qEm9JaTUYvfP8eyXRXG7qjkEfeq7-qEBVAFDWXa5xjYrsluc2o3XDHJet567514lmXhkmXn1_GeYz5MgBDg/w400-h266/Wedding%20cake%20%232.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">That's the face of a man who will never forgive himself if he messes up the cake. That's our family wedding cake knife he's using, and I have no idea who is going to get it after me, since I have no children to pass it down to. But that's a problem for another day.</span><br /></td></tr></tbody></table></span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">Happy 2023, y'all. Hug your loved ones today and enjoy the time you're given for as long as you're given it.<br /></span></p>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-24925582430756448862022-12-31T21:20:00.001-05:002022-12-31T21:20:23.438-05:00Here Where I Stand at the Turning of the Years<p><span style="font-family: verdana;">I've been meaning to post something for a couple weeks, not wanting to let an entire calendar year go by without acknowledging my little corner of the internet still exists... and yet here I am, just over three hours until 2023, finally writing something down. What's about to come out of my brain? Let's find out.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">In the past I've occasionally regretted, at the times I thought about it, the "lost years" of this blog, the 18-ish months that are creeping up on two decades ago when I stopped writing for a while. And now I've done it again. But I suppose the last two years have been lost years for all of us--so many plans unrealized, so many dreams unfulfilled, so much time unused... and so many lives gone out of reach forever. I have nothing new to say about this except to acknowledge that we're all still stuck in this time of collective grief over what we've lost and it's no wonder some folks have turned to anger and others have withdrawn into themselves. (Mind you, I make no excuses for the bad behavior committed out of anger. Everyone is still responsible for their own choices and there is no excuse for lashing out. If you won't behave yourself, stay home instead of forcing your poor choices on others.)</span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;"></span></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">All that said, I haven't even decided whether to create goals for 2023. I have some ideas, things I'd like to do a bit differently from what I've done before. But I also know that until I write them down, they'll stay vague ideas. So perhaps the best way to kick off 2023 will be to come back here and see if I can't let some thoughts start to take shape. Perhaps I'll see you here tomorrow, then.</span></p><p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEif2YDHOP6jqp92KvOuFENxgOB2pWq6fQ_PwZ20otmYpF2YSUaqYMxJRSyCWdiyoL562kAxAh5Qc_QjgtvARIbDKpCfgdmKGa0AlGxSmGx2rSheKj3v_Fz-933sSbn1MnHBTtYwoJXOz1HUY7CLkdNrUc4QjdRIH3we85BbSVs7-xfwIIl8uTI/s745/do-what-youve-always-done-get-what-you-always-got.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="745" data-original-width="650" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEif2YDHOP6jqp92KvOuFENxgOB2pWq6fQ_PwZ20otmYpF2YSUaqYMxJRSyCWdiyoL562kAxAh5Qc_QjgtvARIbDKpCfgdmKGa0AlGxSmGx2rSheKj3v_Fz-933sSbn1MnHBTtYwoJXOz1HUY7CLkdNrUc4QjdRIH3we85BbSVs7-xfwIIl8uTI/s320/do-what-youve-always-done-get-what-you-always-got.jpg" width="279" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: verdana;">I tried finding the original source of this quote. No such source exists, which is to say, everyone has said it at least once. I guess it's my turn.<br /></span></span></td><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><br /></span></span></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: verdana;"><br /></span></p><p></p><p><span style="font-family: verdana;">In the meantime, may you and yours have a safe and happy new year.</span></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><iframe allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/Q5GkMdx4OlM" title="YouTube video player" width="560"></iframe></p>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0Cincinnati, OH, USA39.1031182 -84.5120196-7.320782189329293 134.86298040000003 85.527018589329288 56.112980399999969tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-60525631017705502732021-02-18T10:45:00.002-05:002021-02-18T11:35:18.289-05:00Apparently We Still Need to Do This Every Couple of Years<p>Every time I do one of these posts with suggestions for appropriate (and inappropriate) things to say in times of grief, someone gets mad. So if you're rage-reading this to tell me I'm wrong, welcome! I hope you learn something before storming away in disgust.</p><p>Here's the TL;DR if you don't want to read this whole thing: It's awful
to see a friend or loved one in pain. It's only natural to want to do
what you can to fix it. And it's human nature to try to make it
better--but this one time, just for a little while, don't try to make it
better. Please. Offer hugs, run errands, bring food, let them know
you're available--those are good things to do. If you don't have any
words, it's okay to sit quietly. <i>Please</i> don't try to make it better. It's okay to just be.</p><p>If you came here to see if I've posted anything for Chadwick's deathiversary, <a href="https://cheekyness.blogspot.com/2017/02/two-years.html" target="_blank">here's the play-by-play post I wrote some time ago</a>. I'm not writing all that down again.<br /></p><p>We're back here again for the usual reason--because I saw some folks struggling in the wild with finding the right words, and I'm able to help with that a little bit. My friend Michael made an excellent suggestion the last time this came up:</p><blockquote class="twitter-tweet"><p dir="ltr" lang="en">We need a reprogrammable ubiquitous Clippy.<br /><br />“It looks like you’re trying to be comforting. Would you like help with that?”</p>— Michael Ekstrand (@mdekstrand) <a href="https://twitter.com/mdekstrand/status/950594265012252672?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">January 9, 2018</a></blockquote> <script async="" charset="utf-8" src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js"></script> <p></p><p>Alas, in the absence of such technology, we'll make do with what we have.<br /></p><p>For the times that you don't manage to stop yourself in time from saying things you didn't intend, shake it
off and do better the next time. Whether we like it or not, the wrong
words will pour out of our very human mouths when faced with other
peoples' grief. Also, it's good to remember that while most of these
things that I suggest you not say are pulled from the consensus of
widows groups and similar sources (yes, I did more research than just
living through it), grief is idiosyncratic. It's possible you'll run
across someone who's okay with these statements. But it's safest not to
count on people in grief hearing what you mean and not what you say,
not when there are other options.<br />
</p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicl5O0uNU0XH6cmQ5gmPMoZoTE0no8J_BjH7QoC9rTDJs5TcjTsqs2bihGSAcChLZqvRwBf4wrsphis-dpoM4R46CenVnyh287CdM5GH9URSAgnMxcCdCi50FjRQg7udrrWeq7Hg/s1000/blog+post+2-18-21.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="822" data-original-width="1000" height="329" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicl5O0uNU0XH6cmQ5gmPMoZoTE0no8J_BjH7QoC9rTDJs5TcjTsqs2bihGSAcChLZqvRwBf4wrsphis-dpoM4R46CenVnyh287CdM5GH9URSAgnMxcCdCi50FjRQg7udrrWeq7Hg/w400-h329/blog+post+2-18-21.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">A long and empty road ahead. With clouds gathering. Yeah, that seems like an appropriate metaphor.</span></td></tr></tbody></table>
<p></p><p></p>So! Time to make some folks angry:<br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br />
<i>Part 1: Things That Are Better Left Unsaid</i></span><br />
<br />
<b>1. For the love of everything, please don't race to be the first post your condolences on Facebook. </b><br />
<br />
If you don't know for sure that all family and friends who should hear
the news firsthand have been informed, find something else to do with
your fingers while you wait for the closest relative to post first. I
recommend a good cup of tea and perhaps a crossword puzzle. Honestly,
the deceased is not going to get any less dead if you don't say
something right away. Even if your intentions are good, please wait. Go
ahead and send a text to the widow(er) if you like--but again, don't
expect an immediate response, or indeed any response at all. It's not a
grief-off.<br />
<br />
Also, if you think you should have been among the first to get a phone
call and weren't, or you read it from someone on Facebook before you got
the call, take any aggravation/resentment you may feel and find a
healthy way of dealing with it that doesn't involve airing your
grievances to the bereaved. Ever. This does not have a statute of
limitations. Give the family some slack--there are only so many times
anyone can say, "My [family member] died this morning" before it gets to
be too much.<br />
<br />
<b>2. "Did you know he was sick?" or "Was this a surprise?"</b> <p></p><p>I cannot stress this enough: <i>if you don't already know, it's none of your business right now</i>.
Full stop, no exceptions, especially in the first few weeks when the
bereaved probably don't want to share what happened hundreds of times.
Other people have almost certainly asked before you, so please restrain
yourself. Ask a more distant relative, if you must, but not the people
sitting in the front row at the funeral.<br />
<br />
I got asked this so many times that I started telling people that a
pulmonary embolism is an acute condition that can happen to anyone at
any time, which is not 100% true, but usually gave the questioner reason
to ponder his or her own mortality, preferably somewhere else. If you
don't want this treatment, it's best not to ask. <br />
<br />
Caveat: after a while, people started to phrase it as, "Can I ask what
happened?" which at least gives the bereaved a chance to say "I'd rather
not talk about it" if that's how they feel. (And if that is the answer
you get, back off immediately.) If some time has gone by and you've
still never heard what it was, this is probably the way to do it. Just
please don't assume that every dead person was harboring a secret fatal
illness.<br />
<b><br /></b>
<b>3. "S/He's in a better place."</b><br />
<br />
This may be true, but you shouldn't say it out loud in the presence of
family members who are struggling just to stay upright and survive the
next minute. Hawaii is also a better place, but I wouldn't want him
going there and leaving me behind, either. If this is comforting to you,
say it to yourself. Don't say it to the family.<br />
<br />
And the next is like unto it:<br />
<br />
<b>3. "It's comforting to know that s/he's with Jesus."</b><br />
<br />
You don't know whether this is comforting or not. (Spoiler alert: For
me, it's not, even though I believe that it's true.) So also keep this
one to yourself, if it helps you.<br />
<br />
And the next is like unto it again:<br />
<br />
<b>5. "God needed him/her more that you did."</b><br />
<br />
This is the worst possible thing I can can think of to hear. If you have said it before, please take it OUT of your vocabulary <i>right now</i> and never even think it again. I'm serious.<br /></p><p>No, God bloody well did not. I don't understand why people of faith have
so many awful platitudes we've cooked up for times of crisis, but it's
time for us all to forget them. If this is the best you can do, just
sign the guest register and take a seat with your mouth closed. This is a
terrible thing to say, not only because it's not at all helpful, but also
because it turns God into some kind of weirdo body-snatching alien from a
bad horror movie. Just don't.</p><p>I generally think of these three as the Trinity of I Don't Know What to Say. Don't worry; I've got you covered in the second half. You're almost there.<br /></p><p><b>6. "How are you, <i>really</i>?"</b><br />
<br />
I know, I know. It seems like a well-intentioned, innocent enough
question. This question is okay if you stop at "How are you?" But when you stick that "<i>really</i>" on the end, you're asking to be let in on a deeper level than the bereaved may want to go to right now. And trust me, they have already heard this exact question plenty.<br />
<br />
Asking "How are you?" without any weird emphases and
being open to an honest answer, or to no answer at all, is not bad.
If nothing else, "How are you?" is how we open a lot of conversations,
so it's at least a common convention and is less likely to be
misunderstood. However, know in advance that the answer may well be an
exasperated, "How do you <i>think</i> I am?" So tread carefully.<br />
<br />
<b>7. "Were you close?"</b><br />
<br />
Okay, I pulled this one from my personal archives from when extended family members have passed. Obviously, this isn't
something people ask widows. (At least, I hope not!) And while it's not a bad thing to ask, not like some of the other things on this list; the bereaved will probably tell you
without you asking, anyway.<br />
<br />
<b>8. Anything that might be trying to get the person to look on the bright side.</b><br />
<br />
We're not going to get to the bright side any faster just because
someone is trying to "help" get us there, no matter how good your
intentions are. This is, in fact, one of those times when looking on the
dark side is totally appropriate. There's a road out, but in no
universe does someone come out of the darkness faster if you forcibly
shine a Maglite into their eyes.<br />
<br />
I've probably missed some important ones, but this should be enough to get you started. Above and beyond all else, <u>think before you speak</u>.
Always. That's the best way to save everyone some aggravation,
embarrassment, and heartache. And of course, I'm not leaving you hanging
without some replacement ideas. Here we go:<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><i>Part 2: Things that are good to say</i></span><br />
<br />
<b>1. "Please text/call/Facebook me, even if it's the middle of the night."</b><br />
<br />
This is <i>not </i>for casual acquaintances. You should only say this to
someone with whom you already have a text/call/Facebook relationship.
You should also edit it to fit your own boundaries--if you have small
children in the house, 2 AM phone calls may not be how you can help, for
example. Only say this if you are able and willing for the person to
take you up on it.<br />
<br />
<b>2. "What can I bring you?"</b><br />
<br />
This one works for anyone, unless the bereaved has some sort of
restraining order against you. Be prepared with suggestions if the
person says "I don't know." Be prepared with non-food ideas if the
person says "My fridge is full." Be prepared to get a gift card if the
person says, "No, thank you," but gift-giving is still one of your love
languages. Stick it in a card and drop it in the mail--they'll
appreciate it later. Promise.<br />
<br />
Caveat: Don't bring or give anything if you will be in a huff later if
you didn't get a thank-you card. It's possible that the family will run
out of steam for writing all the thank-you notes they intended, or will
never conjure the energy in the first place. Give with no strings or
expectations, or don't give at all.<br />
<br />
<b>3. "Can I go to the bank/supermarket/library/etc. for you?"</b><br />
<br />
Yes. Yes, you can. Again, maybe this isn't something you'd say to
someone you've only said hello to twice. If you don't know them well
enough to know if they're too private to accept this offer, skip
straight to a nice sympathy card with some kind words inside.<br />
<br />
<b>4. "Do you want to go to [fun thing you've always done together]?"</b><br />
<br />
Give this one a little while before asking the first time, and keep in
mind that the answer will likely be 'no' the first few times you ask.
(Make sure you're spacing out your invites appropriately. This is also
idiosyncratic--weekly? Monthly? Maybe next year? Pay attention to your
friend's response to decide when to ask again.) Please, please don't
give up on your friend. One day, the answer will be 'yes.'<br />
<br />
<b>5. Sharing a favourite memory or something you liked or appreciated about the departed person is nearly always welcome.</b><br />
<br />
This means other kinds of stories, like "most embarrassing moment" or
"something horrible he did to me when we were kids," are not the ones to bring out just yet. Don't be the weird cousin who tells awkward stories at the
wake.<br />
<br />
Also, don't hold back on telling stories even if it's been weeks or
months or years since the deceased passed. The idea of not wanting to
remind the bereaved about his/her loss is silly; it's not like we're
going to forget. If someone says they don't want to hear a memory right
then, accept that in the moment, but that doesn't mean that they'll feel
that way forever. In fact, there's a good chance they may reach out to
you to hear that story once they're in a better frame of mind.<br />
<br />
<b>6. Go to the funeral.</b><br />
<br />
This is not one of mine; it comes from a wise friend (who came to
Chadwick's funeral, btw), and she is 100% correct. It's the best chance
to show that you care. (This does not apply during pandemics, obviously. Until it's safe to gather again, please stick with sending a card.) You don't even have to say anything. I'd be lying
if I said I have instant recall of every person who was at Chadwick's
funeral, but I do know that every person who stepped through the door
made my heart swell a bit more. Especially those who travelled long
distances and were a surprise. You never know how much your presence
will bless someone.<br />
<br />
<b>7. "I care about you."</b><br />
<br />
Just don't be creepy. If you don't know the person well enough to be
non-creepy, there's always the standard-issue and perfectly acceptable:<br />
<br />
<b>8. "I'm so sorry to hear of your loss."</b><br />
<br />
Cliched? Sure. Appreciated? Oh, yes. Even in those dark moments, we all
know that there are no words. <i>Better to say a few and let your presence
speak for you than to try to "fix" it.</i><br />
<br />
So if you've read all this and you're mad at me now or think I don't
know what I'm talking about, congratulations! You are my target
audience. Leave an angry comment if you must, but also, re-read this through a
few times. Print it off and
hang it up, if you need to. Take it along to the next funeral as a cheat
sheet.<br />
<br />
Above all, thank you for trying to lighten the load for someone else.
That's my point for writing this again--to help you help your nearest
and dearest through an awful time. Keep in mind that your words have
power and you'll do just fine.</p>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-800119946148125072021-02-14T23:12:00.002-05:002021-02-16T11:47:09.450-05:00New Every Morning<p>Every time I think there's no reason for me to do an updated version of an old post, I get new inspiration. It's like clockwork. This year, that clockwork comes via the usual place: Evangelical friends who've decided that maybe they might like to try out the Lent thing, just once, to see if they like it. But they aren't sure where to begin. Indeed, we've come a long way since the days when I had to hide from everyone I knew that I was observing Lent. I'm like a Lenten hipster.</p><p>What I am not, however, is any kind of an expert, which is why it baffles me that people keep asking me questions. All I have to offer is long experience as a once-Evangelical (these days I think of myself as a boring Protestant, nothing more) who spent many years treating Lent like a cafeteria line before finally settling upon my own observance. If my experience is of any help to you, come on in. If you already come from a <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/High_church">high church tradition</a>, or if you're horrified that your Evangelical friends would even think of doing Lent, this post is not really for you. (If you aren't interested in Christianity at all, it's extra-really not for you. Sorry; it's part of who I am, but if it doesn't work for you, maybe my next post will be more your speed.)</p><p></p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgunqEToFDv4cmkz5LL5NJH8ti1kmWUYEn7PR1TJp2cNiBZ2yoyNyWxFfvr5MResiDMxKLeLPY1FzrxmdrJAzVehsCEPti8cIzuR1JzKuZYEHTGlXIOc9s1IVdUr57uzkhXxq8deg/s1704/IMG_20210214_145610031_HDR.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1704" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgunqEToFDv4cmkz5LL5NJH8ti1kmWUYEn7PR1TJp2cNiBZ2yoyNyWxFfvr5MResiDMxKLeLPY1FzrxmdrJAzVehsCEPti8cIzuR1JzKuZYEHTGlXIOc9s1IVdUr57uzkhXxq8deg/s320/IMG_20210214_145610031_HDR.jpg" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">You know what my neighborhood has a lot of? Churches. I went out in the pre-winter-storm chill to take pics of a few.</span><br /></td></tr></tbody></table><p></p><p>With those disclaimers firmly in mind, here's my FAQ:</p><div><div style="text-align: left;">
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<b>1) Lent? But why? Isn't that a Catholic thing?</b></div><div>It's not an exclusively Catholic practice, and as your friend I urge you to Google a bit. As for 'why,' it's a practice that I find helpful and comforting. As always, YMMV.<br /></div><div><b> <br /></b></div><div><b>2) Are you judging me for not doing Lent?</b></div>
<div>Fortunately, this question has gotten less frequent over time, and thank goodness, because it's awfully silly. No. You do you.</div><div><br /></div><div><b>3) Don't you think we've already given up enough in the last year? Why would we want to add another thing?</b></div><div>I absolutely do think that. If you just can't face adding Lent to your life right now, no worries. It's okay if you skip a year, or relax a bit from the things you would normally do, or wait until 2022 to try it for the first time. OTOH, if you think, "here is one thing in my life I can keep unchanged," go right ahead. </div><div>Everything has changed in a hurry; it's okay to make your Lenten observance serve what you need right now. Jesus himself said that <a href="https://biblehub.com/mark/2-27.htm">the Sabbath was made for people</a>, not the other way around. <br /></div>
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<b>4) Do you have any Lenten resources to recommend?</b></div>
<div>This is an area that's wide open to your own interests. If you're looking to dive into a particular area of your faith more deeply, that's a good place to start. Perhaps you have a daily devotional guide that you opened a couple times the first week of the year but have been neglecting ever since. </div><div>As for me, I will usually pick a book of the Bible and read through it multiple times throughout Lent, and I've never gone looking for other resources beyond that. Maybe that's a new thing I can try for 2021 so I finally have an answer to this question next year.<br /></div>
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<b>5) Should I announce my fast on social media?</b></div>
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In my experience, people get a little worked up about this one, which is probably why I've
heard a lot of strange reasons in favor of blowing a virtual trumpet on
Shrove Tuesday. Here's what I got:</div>
<div style="text-align: left;"><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Before you decide, please read <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=matthew+6&version=ESV">Matthew 6:16-18</a> and carefully consider your motivation for announcing your fast.</li><li>If you're asking me as someone who's done this many times and has
some experience of the value of people knowing my fast vs not: no, you
shouldn't.</li><li>If you're asking because you're looking for some accountability: I'd
suggest you find an offline human, or if it must be online, that you
approach someone you trust via private message.</li><li>If you're asking because giving up Facebook <i>is </i>your fast and
you want to let everyone know where you're going: I'd only do it if you know for sure your
absence will upset someone. A social media fast is a good exercise in
humility, because you'll realize upon your return just how well that
world keeps on spinning without you. (I say this from astonished
experience.) If you absolutely need to let someone know you're going,
this is probably best done via private message rather than a public
announcement.</li><li>If you're asking for spiritual guidance, I refer you again to <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=matthew+6&version=ESV">Matthew 6:16-18</a>.</li></ul></div><b>5.5) But don't you think that if I announce it on Facebook, it might start a conversation about faith that could lead someone to follow Jesus?
</b><br /><div>I absolutely do not. If we've learned nothing else from the last decade or so on social media, we've learned that productive conversations rarely happen on Facebook. Facebook is where civil conversation went to die quite a long time ago. It's not going to happen.</div><div>If you want to try anyway, then I admire your faith in humanity. Good luck. (Although I would add that if you are into proselytizing, Lent is probably not a great tool to use for that. So... good luck.)
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<div><b>6) Do I have to do the food part of fasting, like meatless Fridays?</b></div>
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Are you participating in Lent as part of your faith tradition, and does
that faith tradition ask you to go meatless? If so, in order to fully
participate with your community: yes. If you're creating your own
community or going it alone, then you have a bit more leeway to decide
which elements, if any, of the traditional fast you're going to adopt. If you've never done any fasting from food before (and do not have a medical condition that precludes fasting), this could be an opportunity to try it.<br /></div>
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<b> </b></div><div><b>7) Did you know Ash Wednesday to Easter Sunday is 46 days, not 40?</b>
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Yes. Sundays don't count as part of the 40 days because Christians
celebrate Jesus' resurrection on those days, and that celebration
supersedes the mourning/fasting of Lent.<br /></div>
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<div><b>8) Does it matter what I give up?</b></div>
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Yes, it matters, but maybe not in the way you're asking. (And it's okay if you haven't decided yet.) Some things to consider:</div>
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<ul style="text-align: left;"><li>What are you trying to learn from Lent? What areas of your life need
growth? Think about that and let that shape your fast. Also keep in
mind that your fast, if it's helping you learn/grow, may not be
something you want to stop at Easter. You can absolutely use these six
weeks as a starting point for something more permanent.</li><li>You may feel like giving up chocolate or TV or something small is
silly. But if you're a first-timer or you choose something small that
will be a genuine challenge, there's no reason to feel less than because
you gave up coffee. Growth can come from small things, too.</li><li>Consider how you will keep yourself in check when your chosen fast
starts really tugging on your brain. If you give up coffee and the
trade-off is that you're unbearable to your coworkers for six weeks,
maybe you're not quite displaying the love of Jesus in the way you'd
intended. Have a plan for refocusing yourself when needed.</li><li>It's not so much what you're giving up; it's what you replace it
with. So before you say, "Got it!" take some time to consider what
you're adding to your life during Lent. <b></b></li>
</ul><b>8.5) If there's something in your Christian life that's a problem, shouldn't you fix it all the time instead of just six weeks a year? </b><br />I didn't realize for a long time indeed that there are folks who believe this is the point of Lent--to temporarily stop doing the things that shouldn't be part of Christian life at all. That's not it. Lent is intended as a time of fasting, which is a different thing than abstaining from vices.<br /></div><div>Of course, if this six weeks is a good starting point for making a change you've been wanting to make, great! I hope it goes well for you. But that doesn't mean it *has* to be that, and for many people, it's not. So, if that's your concern about Lent, you can stop worrying.<br /> </div><div><b>9) What if I don't start on Ash Wednesday or fizzle out by the end? </b><br /> It happens. It's okay if you're human. The Israelites prayed, "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." (That's <a href="https://www.blogger.com/u/1/#">Lamentations 3:22-23</a>.) Make a new beginning as often as you need to; the important thing is that you keep going.<br /> <br /> <b>10) What else do I need to know? </b><br /> Get in there and do it, and be open to what changes in you. Six weeks is a nice length of time to focus specifically on the things you want to give attention to--it's long enough to be a challenge, but short enough to feel doable. Come Easter Sunday, you may be surprised by what you've learned about yourself and your Christian walk in so short a time.<br /></div><div>If you have a community to do this with, by all means, embrace that community whole-heartedly and do this together. God has placed you in a community for good reason, and fasting together as a shared experience can multiply your joys and divide your struggles. <i>Do not neglect your community this Lent.</i> Embrace them. And if you have to embrace your community via Zoom this year, so be it!<ul style="text-align: left;"></ul></div></div></div>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-92185666126760938892021-02-06T23:25:00.001-05:002021-02-06T23:25:35.587-05:00In an Old Photograph, Torn, Tattered, and Stained<p>It was the middle of the workday on Thursday when I remembered that I need to let some coworkers know in a reasonably timely fashion that I will be not be working on the 18th & 19th this month, in case we have any critical deadlines that fall on those days. So I opened my calendar to see how much time I had to give them a heads-up (because knowing either the date or the day of the week is not my strongest suit), and I saw that the 18th was two weeks away. All good.</p><p>Two weeks away.</p><p>Two weeks. </p><p>...<br /></p><p>Not all good. Not remotely good. In fact, pretty lousy.</p><p>My paternal grandmother died on February 4, 2015. A date that would have under any other circumstances been emblazoned upon my brain, so that I wouldn't have had to look at a calendar on February 4 this week to know exactly what day it was. But her passing wasn't under normal circumstances, since my Chadwick joined her just two weeks later. If I concentrate, I can remember snippets of the days surrounding her death: how I was in constant touch with my cousins in a way I hadn't been since we were young (and have not been since), how Denise and I had to wait an extra day before we headed home because money for airfare was tight, how Chadwick opted not to go, so we inadvertently spent one of his final two weeks on this earth apart.</p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSnhL9YW4ndP_HmvfHS2s2_N6drZsdPF4Y2wG9iaQP97dHr4EPzeymqheglgzydp2K9yUNXeRxvGqe02ingRUxdH_5kVw5V3c_HUooBVjoQ_VtxrH58sletl9AUg9rZwLYP3LRFw/s960/grandma+grandpa+kids+little.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="650" data-original-width="960" height="271" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSnhL9YW4ndP_HmvfHS2s2_N6drZsdPF4Y2wG9iaQP97dHr4EPzeymqheglgzydp2K9yUNXeRxvGqe02ingRUxdH_5kVw5V3c_HUooBVjoQ_VtxrH58sletl9AUg9rZwLYP3LRFw/w400-h271/grandma+grandpa+kids+little.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">This is, and I imagine shall forever be, my favorite picture of my grandparents, with six of their eventual eight children. I told Grandma once how much I loved it, and she said, "Why??" And then she told me she was laughing at Grandpa's socks right when this was taken.</span></td></tr></tbody></table><p>How when our plane landed in Denver (I'm pretty sure it was Denver) for a layover, Denise and I turned on our phones to receive the message that we were going to arrive too late to see Grandma alive, that she had passed beyond our reach while we were in the air. And that in the middle of a flurry of family Facebook posts about our loss, someone else (not a relative) happened to have posted this at exactly the right time:<br /><iframe allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/WyxXGdG3-Io" width="560"></iframe> </p><p>How at lunch after her funeral, Uncle Buster rose to say that it was good to see everyone in one place, and that we should do this again when someone hadn't just died. <a href="https://cheekyness.blogspot.com/2018/02/saying-good-bye.html">He's gone now, too, also taken in a February,</a> in fact taking the slot exactly one week between Grandma and Chadwick. I hate this month so much.</p><p>When I search my memory like this, and can come up with so many details, I like to imagine for a moment that I remember it all clearly. But the truth is that week is covered in smoke in my mind, as is the entire first half of 2015. Everything from that time of my life is hidden by a dense fog, through which I only see glimpses, and every glimpse hurts like hell.</p><p>Like this one: a day or two into that Indiana trip, I saw a news article that an unidentified pedestrian had been killed by a driver in our Austin neighborhood. I called Chadwick in an absolute panic, to be met with his reassurances that he was fine. I'm glad we didn't know that was my last time to call him irrationally just to check if he was still alive.<br /></p><p>He was fine.</p><p>I am so not.</p><p>When I checked the calendar on Thursday, and realized what day it was, I was hit by a wave of grief followed by a crushing wave of guilt. It's guilt that I suppose will follow me for the rest of my days, that I can't hold both of those dates in my head. That when it came time to decide which grief was greater, it was no contest. That her passing is but a footnote in my mind, a thing that happened before the bigger Thing That Happened. And while I'm sure that most people would say that I made the correct choice, that in fact it wasn't a choice at all, and that Grandma herself would say that it's right that I grieve my husband taken too soon more than I grieve my grandmother who lived a long and full life: I know all those things to be true. And yet, these emotions will remain, and I'm the one who has to sort through them as best I can.</p><p>Did I mention that I hate February? It's really the worst. </p><p><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Post title is a line from the song "<a href="https://youtu.be/DdxgNPb5xWo">The Green Fields of France</a>," a song that has no relevance to this post whatsoever, but I thought of it while thinking about how difficult it is to pull up any memories from 2015. Torn, tattered, and stained, indeed.</i></span><br /></p>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-51104262373786985552021-01-01T17:00:00.021-05:002021-01-01T18:33:21.725-05:00Hello, 2021 (please wipe your feet)<p>I thought it would be a good idea to bring in the new year by getting my digital life in order, or at least making a start at it. Now, an entire workday's time later, I'm taking a break from relentless unsubscribing.</p><p>Most years, there are two predictable sets of posts throughout the blogosphere to welcome the new calendar: the resolution posts, and the I-don't-make-resolutions posts. Both kinds are endearing in their own way, I suppose, but this year I would welcome them both as a harbinger of less-interesting times. Alas, our times remain interesting, and are likely to be so for some time to come.</p><p></p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-qzu5kwZPF5FlrAMEdjZuLWPEpyY6eITVfwWTPygC_9-Kn1CwuaVwYUTlNB-hj6Evri10zPyLH8Xlme7LexEFdt4TViI8amK-h4USLcmvndR6tCc5UGBMDaHwc3w7AkaydKSSAA/s638/old-soccer-goal-1504646-638x441.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="442" data-original-width="638" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-qzu5kwZPF5FlrAMEdjZuLWPEpyY6eITVfwWTPygC_9-Kn1CwuaVwYUTlNB-hj6Evri10zPyLH8Xlme7LexEFdt4TViI8amK-h4USLcmvndR6tCc5UGBMDaHwc3w7AkaydKSSAA/s320/old-soccer-goal-1504646-638x441.jpg" width="320" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>I searched "goal" on free images, and got this. 1) They're not wrong; and 2) this is exactly the kind of metaphor I was looking for and didn't even know it. Photo by <a href="/photographer/je1196-37948">Julie Elliott-Abshire</a> from <a href="https://freeimages.com/">FreeImages</a>.</i></span><br /></td></tr></tbody></table><br />As for me, I am toying with a few goals for the year, but am in no hurry to get them set. (I'm waiting on results from a COVID test, anyway, so there's a chance I have some unexpected non-working days next week to think it over.) I'll probably land on doing monthly goals, which benefit from having a shorter time frame as a built-in anti-procrastination guard. I also like <a href="https://083950260099-filekit-attachments.s3.us-east-2.amazonaws.com/rqtkg5g8psah7tmoxmkc4iisadvn?response-content-disposition=inline%3B%20filename%3D%2221%20for%202021%20List_Gretchen%20Rubin.pdf%22%3B%20filename%2A%3DUTF-8%27%2721%2520for%25202021%2520List_Gretchen%2520Rubin.pdf&response-content-type=application%2Fpdf&X-Amz-Algorithm=AWS4-HMAC-SHA256&X-Amz-Credential=ASIARHC6TJ6BW35L2E5E%2F20210101%2Fus-east-2%2Fs3%2Faws4_request&X-Amz-Date=20210101T200310Z&X-Amz-Expires=300&X-Amz-SignedHeaders=host&X-Amz-Security-Token=IQoJb3JpZ2luX2VjEPP%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2FwEaCXVzLWVhc3QtMiJHMEUCIC5kI9uwHbOe7L7jC5Ob8ZvGUKEvs%2BRvOCUJ35IdxH3%2FAiEAj5vLgNZspX0VYA8aOyryoFY6kHaBpC8qs%2B07KvStYLUqlwUIrP%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2F%2FARACGgwwODM5NTAyNjAwOTkiDA%2BQwU%2FlskY9TFptsCrrBC03lXs93LhWPQrsXZskqGm%2FHUynSZGtPCCQ%2B1%2B%2Fy1Tjp1ollDuGUOp%2BhNo%2Fs9qDecu3x%2BpHQiD0aZaHbDagdoCHSxYez2jPSuhBiUlPdgKLvNz7p2TruuwwAoNS7JY%2BzCgwH5W%2FJuTO7nhVI8J8XUxJpL9RKVvSR0cQAXLpF9pjJHTjoURkoNbtIOiQ9xK9ysXpJGVDYsjjcfaCVw%2B7mHSmdV53ox4Xem9UZGhA5VbypX5rMwyw6Mvmv5gsYW7OMg1PrRMzneQLC%2Bkp0vLo9xf28XF1Xnbs7Q5mUwrS91UUw%2Fa2O2IzS%2B3l%2FW9nYtyKfB9lPyjWqC5WoY22nu46Q6ICG1atdf5cKU7mGTSO4z5htpXS8TaJfsgBq35AVfBrTLII0dMo8CGjteOaBxGAY6ew9FLR638vbXVDJj4GWwr8yCJp0MXGkBBBWuUIWZ8mvuhg8ud2rHOhVGowOur9b%2FXoxQ0cnLebpy62Y6DXixZlY29uHmK9kPM0GV0Zt2jt3ERxMkeqNZkiiY9ve0FfZ%2F83laroZU1oEEQf6kzS139iiPQsDjAgzNc5qwTcORacx4CkLuz2Hw4ciFMDlcXk0nk3CVOvmQyR%2BM26%2BRaV4Sv8p%2FSnrh0c%2BABarGBGwmv99uqu2KIXY%2FX%2FeyiwCMy7kN7dMa58wfuu5unXW4O5xqNS08jr8ROBJ2Jf6bPAQnAU0lnPqI35BWP2FnrUU8t2cUBbRGwM1DkaAby7FpnoXKofK9deArFb%2B6t6UihKT1pR4%2FoonRP2Y9zb7NucAJK6TvgCy2rVhDqBRuUuEQaZmxMfIupGz5IZAv5bWZwwrue9%2FwU6mgHADNe9FMJS8ivYi60UWd2f35KFp%2BP%2B98%2BX4p3WFMYMucZG4IhsZQ4FGS19IngpHb3lfy%2B4xG9dIYrJwlUby%2BDzQKoelbgQ%2Biya7NcK75dE65H7iGIM7oKcMNQkH8PBEeEeVVL761sTH9C%2FnbCAmNvgPhScBW%2FYWtmJc9hKJf4%2BdmOjRRscoMq6sA%2F7APBrjoguMYtel10PQgv8&X-Amz-Signature=8ac49f38d8b7833858ec35d610943415b72092068b7ff9320590c02848878400" target="_blank">Gretchen Rubin's "21 for 21" idea</a>, and have tossed that one into the hopper to see what comes out.<p></p><p>I've taken the odd moment over the last couple weeks to think over some things I used to do but don't now, and the reasons why I stopped. Two big life events seem to be the main culprits, and yet not the obvious one: when I went back to university in 2010, and when I dragged myself across 1000+ miles to start a new life in Cincinnati in 2016. Of course, 2020 itself bears some of the blame, since in the past few months it's been pretty easy to justify not doing anything extra. Some of the things I've lost along the way: <br /></p><ul style="text-align: left;"><li>Watching basketball games on TV. I used to <i>love</i> watching basketball. This one got lost when I went to UT.</li><li>Watching <i>NCIS</i> and its many spinoffs. Ditto on losing this one to higher education.</li><li>Training well for half marathons. This one would be easy to blame on going to UT, and that is part of the reason, but the bigger problem lies in me jumping into a marathon too soon and never being able to find the spark since. And that's been a loooooong time. Don't get me wrong, I've continued to run half marathons at least once a year from 2008 up until 2020 shut everything down, but I haven't put in that same level of effort and intention, which I used to enjoy, in about a decade. I'm not sure I know how to fix this one.</li><li>Reading a lot. This one fizzled after I moved to Cincinnati, and the fizzling was compounded by 2020. Doomscrolling is way too convenient (and while the term is new, for me as for many, the practice is not).</li><li>Writing a lot. Another Cincinnati casualty, for some reason.</li></ul><p>Is this a starting point for 2021 goals? Perhaps. I'm unlikely to return to watching a lot of TV, my fondness for Timothy McGee notwithstanding, but I can watch one or two Pacers games a week, methinks. Or perhaps it's time to acknowledge that I accidentally had that personality change that I always joke about having not had.</p><p>Whatever your choice for 2021--lots of resolutions, one or two goals, just hanging on tight to see what comes next--I wish you all the best for a year that goes your way more often than not. Indeed, I think that's the best we can all hope for.<br /></p>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0Cincinnati, OH, USA39.1031182 -84.5120196-6.7269566437668118 -154.8245196 84.9331930437668 -14.199519600000002tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-40293246025821473872020-12-31T13:00:00.099-05:002020-12-31T17:11:21.068-05:00Good-bye, 2020 (don't let the door hit you)<p></p>I may have let an entire year go by since my last post, but I didn't want 2020 to go racing out the door altogether without shoving in at least a few words. Someone asked me earlier today, "How are you celebrating the new year?" and I said, "By going to bed on time and getting up when it's 2021. Oh, and probably by putting something on my blog about it being my anniversary. People love my widow content."<p></p><p>So, widow content is what you get.</p><p><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLMwpeDSANt57lZonhs5sVb-U8KHutVGcZ8KpGXu7S9aXdx-p6wctc3zEq9KKAXn8j9CNbbpBcYtz7AZS9CtU9HrBLT9xhGJ_BIrm9FLomGGLk7ybbn7ZU3X-xVhPaQSNY1Dwxog/s500/Gold+and+Black+New+Year+Cheers+2021+Instagram+Post+Template%25281%2529.png" style="clear: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img alt="A drawing of two hands toasting with champagne. Title reads, "Cheers to good health and life 2021."" border="0" data-original-height="500" data-original-width="500" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLMwpeDSANt57lZonhs5sVb-U8KHutVGcZ8KpGXu7S9aXdx-p6wctc3zEq9KKAXn8j9CNbbpBcYtz7AZS9CtU9HrBLT9xhGJ_BIrm9FLomGGLk7ybbn7ZU3X-xVhPaQSNY1Dwxog/w200-h200/Gold+and+Black+New+Year+Cheers+2021+Instagram+Post+Template%25281%2529.png" width="200" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>I went to Canva looking for a nice New Year image, and this one seemed as likely as any. I thought the one that was a warning to be on the lookout for suspicious activity was too on the nose for 2020's last day.</i></span></td></tr></tbody></table>It starts every year with Chadwick's birthday on October 4. I get a carrot cake or two to share at work, I post something cutesy on Facebook about how all October 4 calories are on Chadwick, and then the day ends and the earth continues to turn. And while I try not to let it spill on those around me, it's true that as the nights get longer, my days get darker. The holidays whirl by complete with what would have been, tomorrow, our 19th anniversary.</p><p>It's only a few weeks more until the *other* anniversary comes round, and while the seasons have changed and the literal hours of darkness are already shorter than they were earlier in December, my mental darkness will continue to grow. It's a cycle that's set in that I can't seem to shake--not that I've tried that hard, not that I want to shake it. Apart from the occasional inquiry from friends and acquaintances, the only person this darkness affects is me. And I'm fine with it, for now.</p><p></p>As great as it is when I get to visit with those who knew and loved Chadwick well, it's lovely to daily be surrounded by people who never knew Chadwick. People whose only connection to him is me. It's a gift to have so many friends and coworkers who welcome the stories of a very odd duck who took things as they came and made my life brighter by being in it. And so, if my 2021 starts off dim because I'm still missing the brightest star that ever shone onto my path... so be it.<p></p><p>It's probably best that such a bright soul didn't have to see 2020, anyway.</p><p>Happy new year, friends! As Colonel Potter says, <a href="https://youtu.be/Q5GkMdx4OlM" target="_blank">may she be a damn sight better than the old one</a>.<br /></p>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com1Cincinnati, OH, USA39.1031182 -84.5120196-5.7714006227419716 134.86298040000003 83.977637022741959 56.112980399999969tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-37560480126806001582019-12-02T06:00:00.000-05:002019-12-02T08:27:02.413-05:00The Most Wonderful Time of the Year: Giving TuesdayTomorrow's the day: you'll get emails all day long from every charity you've ever donated to or signed up for emails from, probably including a few that you forgot you ever connected to. (Unsubscribe if you want, but please think twice before reporting them for spam. Just because you don't remember signing up doesn't mean you didn't, nor is being tired of the email blasts a good reason to overreact. Nonprofit orgs are a lot more likely to be hurt by an email spam report than a nationwide chain store is, so please don't.) (Unless the org you're reporting for spam has done other terrible things, in which case: report away.)<br />
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I love Giving Tuesday. Love it. Ever since the first one back in 2012, it's one of my favorite days of the year. It's a day that I look forward to and strive to extract every drop of joy from. Obviously, this is related to me working for three nonprofits--it's fun to do our outreach on the day, connect with donors on social media, get donations that we can put to immediate good use--there's nothing not to love about this day from the point of view of a communications person at a nonprofit. Even the work leading up to it is fun work (although I will say I'm exhausted from the past few weeks and dancing on the very edge of burnout, so it's possible I went a bit overboard this year).<br />
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I also enjoy seeing what other orgs are doing for Giving Tuesday. Every sigh of "Oh, I wish I'd thought of that!" is an opportunity to learn from others. The nonprofit sector is huge, lots of groups are doing the hard work of making the world a better place, and to take a stroll through the Giving Tuesday hashtag on any network is to be inspired.<br />
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Maybe you don't feel the same way about Giving Tuesday. Frankly, it's hard to imagine anyone who's not in the nonprofit sector having this same level of passion for a day of giving, although I'm sure such folks exist. Maybe you like to give in other ways, or maybe the spark just hasn't caught yet for you. Maybe you're cranky about your inbox filling to the brim after you've only just emptied out all the Black Friday and Cyber Monday blasts.<br />
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But maybe you're ready to wake up tomorrow looking for ways to make the world a better place, and if so, I invite you to join me on the Giving Tuesday hashtag on the social network of your choice. <a href="https://twitter.com/cheekysu">Tweet me</a> and tell me about what org you've found that I shouldn't overlook before the clock strikes midnight on Wednesday!<br />
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<i>Thanks for stopping by Cheekyness! I hope this blog can be a calm/fun/bright space in your day. If you like what you see here, <a href="https://twitter.com/cheekysu">find me on Twitter for more random nonsense</a>, or <a href="https://www.instagram.com/su.wilcox/">follow me on Instagram to see what a terrible photographer I am</a>. If you have thoughts, too, share them in the comment box below, but please note that I ignore and remove spammers, jerks, and trolls without remorse.</i>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-33722802911806870532019-11-18T21:54:00.002-05:002019-11-18T21:54:55.065-05:00NaNoWriMo SurvivalDear readers,<br />
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I am not dead! Okay, see you after <a href="https://nanowrimo.org/">NaNoWriMo</a>.<br />
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I kid! I have a few more words than that for you.<br />
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Yes, I've been gone for a very long time, and that long absence is because the internet sucks. (By "sucks" I don't mean mine is slower than usual; I mean people are awful. If you think I mean you, then you should really spend some time with that thought.) However, it's clearly not going to get any better with me avoiding it, so here I am with a few words for those of us in the throes of NaNoWriMo.<br />
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But if you're not a WriMo, one more thing before you go: I have lots of blogging plans for 2020. And some things for the rest of 2019. Make sure you have me bookmarked.<br />
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So! NaNoWriMo friends, we are in the messy middle. This is the trenchiest that NaNo gets. Initial enthusiasm may have waned, you may be a bit behind, and there are still two weeks to go, or maybe your plot has fizzled and the big twist turned out to be more of a crinkle.<br />
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Friend, you got this. Butt in chair, fingers on keys, and write down everything you can think of. Jump to a fresh page and write some backstory. Skip to that scene that you've been building up to but haven't yet figured out how to connect the dots to. Transcribe the conversations you overhear in the office. Do what it takes to get some words on the page, because your brain won't kick in with ideas if you're too paralyzed to get the fingers moving.<br />
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Having said that, here are a few more survival tips:<br />
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<li>Convenience foods are your friends. Pre-cut fruits and veggies are a godsend. For you or for your family; they'll be fine.</li>
<li>Don't host Thanksgiving at your house. (It may be too late for this one for some of you.) If you do, tell your guests to expect dust, because NaNo. If they don't get that, they should not get any of your pumpkin pie.</li>
<li>Minutes matter. In line at the store? Waiting at the school pickup? Ten minutes between meetings? Pull out your phone and get some words down.</li>
<li>BACK. UP. EVERYTHING. Twice!</li>
<li>If social media isn't helping, it's hurting. Turn off Facebook and Instagram for a couple weeks. Everybody will be cool with it. </li>
<li>And finally... keep moving. If you're awake (and please do be getting a reasonable amount of sleep!), you're doing something. That's the way to make it to 50K before November 30.</li>
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That's all I've got! I have to get back to writing now, so let me know your best NaNoWriMo survival strategy. I will happily put them all to good use.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-401164816373415692019-03-03T13:29:00.000-05:002019-03-03T13:29:23.801-05:00Ashes to AshesFor some reason, my pre-Lent posts have been wildly popular the last couple years. I'm not certain why that is, but in case you've dropped by under the impression that I know things, I want to state as strongly as possible: <i>I am not an expert.</i> My Lenten experiences have no basis in any particular branch of Christianity, in part because in my early years of observing Lent I had to keep it a secret from my extremely Evangelical family. They would have flipped their collective lids.<br />
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So Middle School Su had to cobble together her own path through this time of year, and now that I have nearly 30 years' experience of Cafeteria Lent, folks trying it for the first time tend to ask me questions. So this post is an FAQ of what previously non-observing friends and acquaintances usually want to know ahead of Ash Wednesday.<br />
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No. I don't have the interest or mental energy for keeping that close of tabs on your life. You do you and I'll do the same.</div>
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<li>Before you decide, please read <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=matthew+6&version=ESV">Matthew 6:16-18</a> and carefully consider your motivation for announcing your fast.</li>
<li>If you're asking me as someone who's done this many times and has some experience of the value of people knowing my fast vs not: no, you shouldn't.</li>
<li>If you're asking because you're hoping that announcing your fast will start faith-producing conversations: you have wildly misjudged the medium if you expect a productive conversation on Facebook. Still, if you'd like to forge ahead and have an exceptionally open-minded audience, go ahead and try it. Best of luck.</li>
<li>If you're asking because you're looking for some accountability: I'd suggest you find an offline human, or if it must be online, that you approach someone you trust via private message.</li>
<li>If you're asking because giving up Facebook <i>is </i>your fast and you want to let everyone know where you're going: I'd only do it if your absence will upset someone. A social media fast is a good exercise in humility, because you'll realize upon your return just how well that world keeps on spinning without you. (I say this from astonished experience.) If you absolutely need to let someone know you're going, this is probably best done via private message rather than a public announcement.</li>
<li>If you're asking for spiritual guidance, I refer you again to <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=matthew+6&version=ESV">Matthew 6:16-18</a>.</li>
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<li>Some folks are under the impression that people only give up sins that they should have already been trying to remove from their lives. Now, if Lent helps you do that, I'm not about to tell you not to. Six weeks of focused intent may be you push you need to finally deal with that thing. However, it doesn't have to be that, and for many participants it's not.</li>
<li>You may feel like giving up chocolate or TV or something small is silly. But if you're a first-timer or you choose something small that will be a genuine challenge, there's no reason to feel less than because you gave up coffee. Growth can come from small things, too.</li>
<li>Consider how you will keep yourself in check when your chosen fast starts really tugging on your brain. If you give up coffee and the trade-off is that you're unbearable to your coworkers for six weeks, maybe you're not quite displaying the love of Jesus in the way you'd intended. Have a plan for refocusing yourself when needed.</li>
<li>It's not so much what you're giving up; it's what you replace it with. So before you say, "Got it!" take some time to consider what you're adding to your life during Lent. </li>
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Get in there and do it, and be open to what changes in you. If you have a community to do this with, by all means, embrace that community whole-heartedly and do this together. God has placed you in a community for good reason, and fasting together as a shared experience can multiply your joys and divide your struggles. <i>Do not neglect your community this Lent.</i> Embrace them.</div>
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I'm in Austin this week, visiting my sister and seeing some of the beloved people and places that have helped make me who I am. It's an ongoing joke/truism in Austin that <a href="http://www.cc.com/video-clips/k5hi2k/the-daily-show-with-jon-stewart-democalypse-2014---south-by-south-mess--don-t-ingress-with-texas">things around here change in a hurry</a>, and not always for a better in the eyes of the locals. And while you don't have to leave for a couple years to see it--just waiting around one's own neighborhood for a few months will do--coming back to visit every six months is a fast way to muddle all the mental maps I used to have.<br />
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Capital Metro, for instance. A bus system I once knew as well as the inside of my own apartment. I knew that major changes were coming--there were signs up at every bus stop when I was last here in May, plus I keep up with the Twitter chatter around transportation in Austin. But last night Denise and I were driving home from "my" HEB (which has also been rearranged, by the way) and talking about buses that are rerouted and stops that we used to use that are now gone altogether. I had no sooner said aloud, "I need to look at <a href="https://www.capmetro.org/uploadedImages/New2016/Plan_Your_Trip/Destinations_Schedule_Book/system_map.png">the CapMetro map </a>and see what's changed," than I saw a sign for the upcoming Austin Marathon, indicating that the route is going through East Austin, a place it never went in the years I was running, volunteering, or spectating. So I added, "And I guess I need to look at <a href="https://youraustinmarathon.com/course/#coursemaps">the marathon map</a>, too."<br />
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Places adapt and change. Kids grow up. People move away. Businesses close up shop and others open, buildings are torn down and new ones spring up. This is true everywhere, not just Austin--I've seen it happen plenty in the short time I've been in Cincinnati. And while I have my own reasons for clinging desperately to a time that is gone, the truth is that I know full well those days are never coming back again. My first Austin bus route is gone forever, the local supermarket can't serve customers who don't exist, and I'll never go back to one of my former apartments, open the door, and find Chadwick on the other side waiting for me to come home. The world is moving on and I've already gone with it, whether I like it or not.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.austinmonthly.com/AM/August-2017/Fast-Facts-Ai-Weiweis-Forever-Bicyles/">Ai Weiwei's "Forever Bicycles" is here on a long-term <br />loan</a>. For that matter, it may be gone; I haven't been<br />round to look yet. It's new since I lived here and will also<br />be moving away again.</td></tr>
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On the other hand, the Austin Half Marathon course has reverted to the one I ran for the first time and loved back in 2009, and while I'm not going to be here in two weeks' time to experience race day in<br />
person, there's nothing to stop me from running some of those miles this week. Not for the sake of reliving the past, but rather to get all the joy I can out of the present.<br />
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And I hope that's what you're doing this week, too.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-7396263893558251832019-01-30T21:43:00.001-05:002019-01-30T21:44:55.665-05:00How to Get to Carnegie Hall (kinda)Friends, let's talk writing. Specifically, <i>your</i> writing.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">If you have a pen this fancy, on you go! If not, any <br />
writing utensil will do. Doesn't matter. <br />
Pick it up and start writing.<br />
Source: <a href="https://www.freeimages.com/photo/writing-1317009">André Bergonzzi on freeimages.com</a>.</td></tr>
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I see you trying. I see you struggling with the thoughts and feelings that are inside you that, if you could only find the right words, might reassure or inspire or help or in any way make a mark on someone who needed to hear from you today. I see you, and you aren't alone.<br />
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Maybe you want to reflect on a milestone in your life. Maybe you have lots of great things to say, but the tools you'd like to use to say them are rusty, dusty, or blunt from neglect. Maybe 2019 is the year you finally want to put into words how flowers newly blooming, or summertime, or the start of a new school year, or Christmas or New Year make you feel--you want to share this piece of your heart, but every time you try, you hope for a ting! and instead get a thunk.<br />
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The good news is: you can do this. The less good news is: you're going to have to work at it.<br />
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Don't go! This shouldn't be a surprise to you. After all, it's widely accepted that anything worth getting is going to cost you some sweat equity, and that anything that comes without a cost is likely to be valued less. And if you don't have time or energy for this right now, that's okay! Maybe this isn't your season for improving this skill. Let it go for now, concentrate on what you need to be concentrating on, and you'll come back to this one in due course.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">This movie is filled with great quotes<br />
about writing. And if you don't watch the<br />
last 30 minutes, it even has a happy ending!<br />
Source: <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/389561436516308202/">Pinterest</a>.</td></tr>
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Still with me? Great. Now, I'm not going to give you a list of Top Ten Things Real Writers Do. Why not? Because it is the 21st century and we have search engines, my friends. If that's what you're after, better people than me can help you out. No, we're going to talk about the thing that will help you get more comfortable with expressing yourself in writing: practice, practice, practice.<br />
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Yep, if by the end of May you want to be able to share with confidence and fluency what your child's eighth grade graduation means to you, now's the time to be working on your voice. Start right now--get a pen, or open up a word doc, or create an account on Blogger, if that's how you roll. Start writing. Use 100 words to tell yourself your favorite thing about winter. You don't have to post it on Facebook, or make your spouse read it, or even show anyone at all. Just do it. Tomorrow, write another 100 words, this time about the blanket on your bed. Your preferred mug. The feeling of getting up a few minutes early, when everyone else is still asleep. 100 words not enough? Try for 250. And when you've no idea at all what you can write about today, <a href="https://thejohnfox.com/2016/06/creative-nonfiction-prompts/">here's a list of nonfiction writing prompts to get you started</a>.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">I personally don't plan to woo any<br />
women, but the sentiment holds<br />
regardless: if you want your message<br />
to be received, laziness will not get<br />
you there. (And for anyone looking to<br />
woo me: listen to Mr. Keating.) <br />
Source: <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/316940892506232843/">Pinterest</a>.</td></tr>
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Don't try to be "good." Don't try to be "smart." At the beginning, don't try to make a beautiful point or even any point at all. Just practice getting words out. After a while, when you're ready, it's time to take an extra moment to consider what word you <i>really</i> mean in the middle of your sentence about your grandmother's antique clock. Was it old, or was it ancient? Was the ticking loud, or stentorian? Did it smell strong, or of mothballs and furniture polish? But don't be fancy just to be fancy. Use the right words to say what you mean.<br />
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Don't be afraid and don't get discouraged. Take heart from this tidbit I used to tell folks when I worked at UT's writing center: no one is born a good writer, just like no one is born walking and talking. They are skills, and they can all be learned. Even this one.<br />
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A few minutes every day, bit by bit, and you start to know what feels right when you write it down. What sounds like you. How to get as close as possible to transmitting the picture in your brain into your readers' brains as well. And maybe that's when you set up shop and get your own blog going, or a daily thought on Facebook, and start letting other people in to what you're thinking of. Or maybe you realize you like having all these words all to yourself.<br />
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And then, come the next significant date you wish to commemorate with a lovely Facebook post designed to touch hearts <i>and </i>minds, you'll be ready.<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Post title is a reference to the well-known joke. If you've never heard it, that is a real bummer.</i></span>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-90990089409328024982019-01-27T19:50:00.003-05:002019-01-27T19:50:56.620-05:00Well.Enough folks have asked what's happened with my blog that I'm acknowledging it's probably time for a check-in. And I have a few minutes before <i><a href="https://www.fox.com/rent/">Rent: Live</a></i> begins.<br />
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So! What's happened? Well, everything. It feels inappropriate to be light-hearted when the world is on fire, as I've mentioned before. I'm not a political blogger and don't want to be, at least in part because there are not a lot of major policy issues about which I have a level of expertise for rambling on for 500 words or fewer. (Transportation. That's it. That's my area.) I realize this is a small bother that doesn't really stop many folks, but it stops me. I won't be that person.<br />
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That person, however, exists. That person is a lot of people I care about. I've sought offline conversations rather than this format for nearly a year now, because engaging with that person is both depressing and wearying. Please, let's all be less of that person. Being informed is good. Educating one's self is good. Getting locked into an echo chamber or sharing dumb, baseless memes on Facebook is terrible.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">You know what they say about lighting a candle instead of<br /> cursing the darkness. <span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><a href="http://www.freeimages.com/photo/candle-1311394" style="color: #33aaff;">Source: Sorina Bindea <br />on freeimages.com</a>.</span></span></td></tr>
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But so is withdrawing altogether, and I like to do what I can. What I can do is pick up again on a regular dose of the B things I know (why do they all start with B? No idea): books, bikes, buses, and Broadway. If that's what you like, here I am. If not, well, I can't imagine why you're here, but hello there! *waves* You are most welcome.<br />
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So should you come by in a few days, or weeks, or months, and think, "My goodness, she has a lot to say about utter drivel when there's serious work to be done,": yes. Yes, I do. Please know that I'm not unaware of the world around me and I'm doing my part in as many offline ways I can find. In the meantime, here is a space to be lighthearted. And wow, do I have a bunch of theatre to tell you about.<br />
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Not right now. <i>Rent: Live</i> is about to begin.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-41256252928695985582018-04-03T05:00:00.000-04:002018-04-03T05:00:03.400-04:00Waitlisted. Worth It.This is <a href="https://cheekyness.blogspot.com/2018/03/together-apart.html">the second book I picked up at the library</a> last week, and I'd better read it in a hurry because there's a waitlist. (And it's huge, by the way. The book, that is.)<div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/35068536-unmasked">Source</a>.</td></tr>
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I managed to see two different ALW shows in the past six weeks that I hadn't seen before-- <i>School of Rock</i> and <i>Jesus Christ Superstar</i>. The one I haven't seen yet but would really like to is <i>Sunset Boulevard</i>, but since it's closed on Broadway and I may have missed my chance for a while. </div>
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On the other hand, <i>Cats</i> is coming to Cincinnati and I really enjoy that show, plus <i>Phantom of the Opera</i> is sitting right here in my living room, so it's not like I'm lacking ALW in my life.</div>
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And even less so once I finish reading his book.</div>
Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-64053770882269789822018-04-02T05:00:00.000-04:002018-04-02T05:00:50.216-04:00Slow StepsI walked away from my first trip to Broadway a few years ago in a daze and a happy fog* that took me ages to come down from, but also with a nagging thought that (I've heard) plagues us all at times:<br />
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I suck.</div>
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I reminded myself later that obviously I was going to feel this way when watching people at the top of their field, a field which is not my field, and perhaps my time would be better spent working on the things I <i>can </i>do rather than pining over the things I can't. And this is one of the many times that I reminded myself that running is a thing I can do and always get better at. It helps to start off so slow, so that I can only get better, but the steps to getting better can be so incremental it doesn't have to suck a lot. Which is great, because I've reached a point that my willingness to do things that suck a lot just for the sake of doing them is low. Small amounts of suck I can still deal with.<br />
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So! New week, new month, new goal race: the <a href="http://queenbeehalf.com/">Queen Bee Half Marathon</a> in October.<br />
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What's a thing you can do this week?<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">*Speaking of a theatrical fog: <a href="https://www.nbc.com/jesus-christ-superstar?nbc=1"><i>Jesus Christ Superstar</i> live</a>. If you missed it, wow, did you ever miss out. I've heard it's on Hulu.</span></div>
Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-34427547438061783022018-04-01T05:00:00.000-04:002018-04-01T05:00:13.151-04:00Out of the DarknessI've lived my whole life with a risen Saviour. It's never been a question, it's a thing I can't remember not knowing. Easter Sunday is but another confirmation of that which I live with every day: He is risen indeed.<br />
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You know who didn't know that? Jesus' original followers. And this is another thing I've always known, that they went through Holy Saturday filled with grief and despair, not knowing how close hope and joy was. Not knowing just how brief this season of sorrow was going to be. They looked ahead and could only see an endless stretch of empty days filled with discarded dreams--how could they possibly go back to their old lives after all they'd seen and done?<br />
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But knowing that this was what they felt is a different thing, on this side of Resurrection Sunday, than feeling what they felt. I have a pretty vivid imagination, and some experience of grief, and you probably do, too, so we have an idea of what that day was like. Which means we also have an idea of what it was like on Sunday, when they friend and leader they thought was lost turned out to not be, when grief mingled with surprise and disbelief and finally gave way to joy. A joy that I now share in but likewise can't fully know on this side of eternity.<br />
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I keep coming back to this verse in <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2+Corinthians+5%3A17&version=KJV">2 Corinthians</a>, particularly in the springtime when the whole world feels new. The Cincinnati weather for the past couple weeks has not given me a lot to celebrate in the way of spring arriving, between our freezing temperatures and our gloom, but on Easter Sunday the joy and newness comes from within, no matter what the skies are doing. It is a time to rejoice.<br />
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A time to remember that even in the darkest moment, hope remains. All things will still become new.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-16977380640662298722018-03-27T21:28:00.000-04:002018-07-04T11:31:53.917-04:00Together. Apart.<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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I put this book on hold at the library before Ash Wednesday, thinking it would be a good Lenten read. My turn to borrow it finally came up yesterday, with less than a week of Lent left to read it in. Oops.<br />
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I'm staring at the cover, now,* instead of reading it. For a few weeks I've been in one of those seasons when I walk through a dense fog of numbness, and while on so very many levels it's better than some of the alternatives, it means that words like <i>Life Together</i> jangle around in my head and can't find a place to belong. What does life together mean when you are forever apart?<br />
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I know that's not what the book is about. I don't know how familiar I'll be with the words inside until I open it up and read it, but this is a book Chadwick loved and talked about often, so I'm sure I'll meet some old friends inside. I know this isn't a book about that relationship. It's about community, and I'm nothing if not wildly enthusiastic about embracing my community. But this is something Chadwick and I shared--one reason I never read it was because he loved to tell me about it. And now I'm about to read about being together, alone.<br />
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I thank God every day for the community I have. A church family who are some of the best on the planet, coworkers who I don't understand how I'm so lucky to spend every day with. (We have some new folks who have absolutely brightened my past couple of weeks. To say nothing of the ones I already knew were bright.) I don't know how this happened, but there's a part of me that thinks that life together is already going pretty great, and I'm not sure how one little book will make it any better.<br />
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So. I'd better crack this thing open and find out. I'm sure the library still has a waitlist of other people who need it, too.<br />
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Maybe one of them is you. What's your community like?<br />
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">*Unrelated tangent: there's an actor who I like, who I follow across all his public social media accounts, who has a strange relationship with commas. Sometimes it's all I can do to hold back from telling him that I'm taking all his commas away until he learns what they're for. Other times, like now, I find the urge to slip in an extra comma à la that guy too strong to resist. Sometimes it's more comforting than frustrating, so I can see why he's embraced it.</span>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-80789827335583562572018-03-12T05:00:00.000-04:002018-03-12T07:53:38.535-04:00Start AgainDo you make Daylight Saving (no really, <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daylight_saving_time">there's no 's' at the end</a>) resolutions? Because I'm thinking it should be a thing.<br />
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that observe Daylight Saving Time,<br />
I've never been more ready for more of<br />
this than I am this year.<br />
Bring it on, DST. <a href="http://moziru.com/explore/Sun%20clipart%20vector/#">Source</a>.</td></tr>
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I mean, if you did make a New Year resolution, we're two and a bit months in, and that's a great time to reevaluate, refocus, and perhaps redo. If you didn't, now's a good opportunity to consider what you'd like to do with all the non-winter days ahead of us, perhaps especially things that go well with longer sunlit evenings.<br />
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And here's a bonus for folks like me who enjoy hibernating in the winter months: Saving Time lasts 8 months. So if I make a Saving Time resolution, then I can make a Standard Time resolution for the other four months, when the days are short and my motivation to do anything at all is low. Managing my own expectations, as it were. Plus, that beats the rush for the next round of New Year resolutions--I'll be saying, "Already been going on this one for a couple months, thanks!" while everyone else is writing their hot takes on why they set goals instead of making resolutions.<br />
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I'm thinking today of my wise friend Ruthie's words about Lent a year ago: "I love that the opportunity keeps coming around. ... I love that even if you've forgotten New Year resolutions, you can start again with new habits/determination/focus to be a better you." Indeed--even if a DST resolution isn't your thing (and seriously, when it's abbreviated that way, it kinda sounds like a drug), maybe there's another time that is. New year? Beginning of summer? Beginning of the school year? Random Tuesday?<br />
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Whenever you start a new goal, Ruthie's point still resonates-- you can always start again. Don't give up.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-87506463526985160562018-03-11T15:55:00.000-04:002018-03-11T15:55:39.540-04:00HalfwayLent always last a couple weeks longer than I think it will. It's not like I go into Ash Wednesday unsure if Lent is the same length every year, or like I don't know when Easter is, but I still always get a couple weeks in and think, "We're about done with this, right?" Case in point: I almost wrote this "halfway there!" post last week.<br />
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So, we're halfway through Lent now, and as spring creeps closer and Easter is almost upon us, I'm seeing more than usual the wisdom of having Lent as a pre-Easter preparation rather than before other Christian holidays. Last year, my first winter back in the Midwest after a 20-year absence, was barely any kind of winter at all. I said then and am still saying now that last winter was God's way of easing me back into the climate that I fled for good reason, but this winter has been a little bit closer to the early dark and freezing temps and one-warm-day-haha-fooled-you weather yoyo that I remember from my childhood. And it is wearing me down.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">People were walking past these daffodils<br />like it's no big deal! Like the winter is not<br />sucking their lives away! I don't know how<br />other people do it. I saw these flowers and<br />did quite the happy dance right there on<br />the sidewalk.</td></tr>
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The past week or so I've been eagerly checking every bush and tree that I walk by for signs of new life, and I'm finally seeing signs of reawakening--some tiny buds here, a set of early leaves there, and reliable bulbs like daffodils and lilies saying "ready or not, here we come," to the ambient temperatures and shooting out of the ground right on cue. These signs of life are <a href="https://youtu.be/HPIos2mXbUE?t=1m56s">giving me strength to journey on</a>, and also to walk through the streets of Cincinnati singing "<a href="https://youtu.be/3URL--xUIvs">Wick</a>." (No word on how my fellow citizens feel about my musical interludes. I like to think of it as a public service.)<br />
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Lent begins in the darkness of winter, at a time when the sunlight- and warmth-loving among us (me) are just about ready to throw in the towel and go hibernate for a few weeks until the weather gets its act together. But to take on Lent seriously is to push myself even when it's hard and I want to give up, so that on Easter Sunday and beyond I can rejoice at the new growth and rebirth taking place in my own life, for having gone through the hard days and persevered through the struggle. And then I'll look around at the trees and flowers and all of creation rejoicing with me.<br />
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Halfway there, friends. Let's persevere through these last few weeks of winter together so we can rejoice together in the spring.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-36694041196067180842018-03-03T10:49:00.000-05:002018-03-03T12:24:52.820-05:00SkilledToday's post is inspired by a Facebook post I saw this morning. Now, I normally try not to respond to those, because Facebook is the waste treatment plant of the internet. The post I saw, though, was interesting--it was about "adulting" classes (in quotes because while I think that word is fun as slang, I don't yet know how I feel about it being a real word) for young adults who lack life skills. Examples in the video included changing a flat tire, boiling an egg, folding a fitted sheet, and hulling a strawberry (I don't think I'll ever need that last one, but YMMV).<br />
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And while it's easy to say, "kids these days, amirite?" and roll right along, the truth is that skills have to be learned. We aren't born knowing anything. Every skill that I have, I've learned along the way, either from someone teaching me directly or by trial and error. There's nothing inherently irresponsible or shameful about not knowing a thing, and it's silly to expect that people will learn everything they need to know in the first 20 years, some of which years were spent pickup up random things and putting them in our mouths.<br />
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By the way, the person who I saw share this on Facebook was not being snide about adulting classes. It was when I made the mistake of clicking through and reading some comments that I decided to write an entire (long) post about it.<br />
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I remember my mother describing a personal finance class she took in high school, in which she learned to create a budget and balance a checkbook, a class that was long gone by the time I went to the same school 20 years later. There just wasn't room for it in the curriculum. And now, 20+ years later again, schools are even more pressed for what's included and what's not. New information comes at us constantly, testing is ever more intense for teachers and students, colleges have high demands for admission so students are swamped with extracurriculars--<a href="https://medium.com/the-mission/the-12-important-life-skills-i-wish-id-learned-in-school-f4593b49445b">who has the <i>time</i> for a life skills class in school</a>?<br />
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And the culture we live in bears some blame. I knew a dude a few years back who told me that he didn't teach his kids life skills because he wanted to keep them dependent on him, so they would come home for the weekends when they went to college. That was his plan for keeping his kids out of trouble, and I doubt that he was the only person who thought this was a good solution. I think of him often when I see the local college students struggling in Kroger, because I wonder if their parents ever let them into a supermarket before. My own father refused to teach me any mechanical things (including driving a stick shift, when I specifically asked him to teach me) on the grounds that "girls don't need to know that." Please, please, parents--<i>do not do this. </i>I get that your lives are already overflowing, the world puts way too many unrealistic demands on you, and that the years are short. But please try not to shortchange your kids this way.<br />
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There is a certain kind of human, and I'm related to an unfortunately high number of them, who believes that some things are just "common sense" and people "shouldn't need to be told that." However, that's just not true. I agree that there are many things that are caught rather than taught as one grows up--the aforementioned supermarket example springs to mind--but to presume that everyone caught the same information, or that we all have the same kind of upbringing, or that the human brain has a built-in program for knowing exactly what to do all the time, is just to invite frustration and misunderstanding into life.<br />
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By the way, as an adult I've had to learn how to drive a stick shift (at age 30) and how to change a flat tire on my bicycle (at age 34). A few months back I asked my brother to show me how to change a flat tire on a car (at age 39), although since I haven't had occasion to practice that one I'm sure I'll have to ask him again. (Mad props to my brother for being a lot more gracious and mature about that request than our father was. Maybe have a young widowed sister has helped him see the world in a different way than was possible for our father at this age.)<br />
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When someone hasn't read a classic book, I always try to say "Oh! What a treat you have ahead of you!" rather than "I can't believe you haven't read this!" because no one wants to be shamed into reading.<br />
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Repeat after me: There's nothing inherently irresponsible or shameful about not knowing a thing. It is okay to ask for help and seek out the skills that you're lacking. In fact, it shows incredible maturity to do that kind of self-assessment and look for self-improvement. What <i>is</i> shameful is mocking or belittling someone who's doing their best to fill those gaps. Everyone has something they don't know or haven't learned to do yet. Let's move forward together with that in mind, please.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-35343266777641107902018-03-01T05:00:00.001-05:002018-03-01T05:00:33.457-05:00School of Listen Up<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
I'm going to talk a little bit about <i><a href="https://ustour.schoolofrockthemusical.com/">School of Rock</a></i>, and it will contain spoilers, so I'll do my usual things that I do so you can get away quickly if the musical is coming to you next and you've been avoiding internet reviews and whatnot. (By the way: this is not a review. I don't really do that.) I did not see the movie that inspired the musical--folks seem really keen on asking that question. I'm sure it's great, but I'm not a movie gal.</div>
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Okay, that should cover the few lines that pull from Facebook. Everything else after the jump.</div>
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<a name='more'></a>This show is absolutely from a kid's-eye-view of the world, and that includes the main character, Dewey Finn, who is basically a tall kid who's allowed to drink. And by the way, the kids are spectacular. I've heard many great things about the <i>School of Rock</i> cast, and was not disappointed.<br />
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So there's a scene in the middle of Act I when the kids go home and interact with their parents. There's one of each parenting stereotype in this show, and while it's easy to see that most of the parents are doing the best they can to navigate life and give their kids every opportunity, a couple of them are simply awful. And I wish awful people weren't allowed to have children, but they are--it's not like I've never met people like these two. I know they exist. One of them gets some redemption by the end, the other not so much.<br />
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Anyway, the scene. Each kid, having tried in vain to express his or her thoughts or feelings to the relevant parental figure, sing "<a href="https://youtu.be/Tpg0hEeCZcs">If Only You Would Listen</a>." And it's heartbreaking, especially as they kids repeat, "All I want is your ear." They just want to be heard, the same thing everyone wants.<br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjY4epDavriC8P_xn2BjQdJ0ND7xyiroc2vKGHd2iqL0z5YHBqYahRsdZ__oz6hU7oELqvG8nnG0rMSIq3N3TWj8T8TGDZgdpwnetuT5l6pEiv66BPMMBp_fz5QDUvyWH1pA8foAg/s1600/always+been+big+stuff.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img alt="Listen earnestly to anything your children want to tell you, no matter what. If you don't listen eagerly to the little stuff when they are little, they won't tell you the big stuff when they are big, because to them, all of it has always been big stuff." border="0" data-original-height="564" data-original-width="564" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjY4epDavriC8P_xn2BjQdJ0ND7xyiroc2vKGHd2iqL0z5YHBqYahRsdZ__oz6hU7oELqvG8nnG0rMSIq3N3TWj8T8TGDZgdpwnetuT5l6pEiv66BPMMBp_fz5QDUvyWH1pA8foAg/s320/always+been+big+stuff.jpg" title="" width="320" /></a></td></tr>
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So the song made me think of this Catherine Wallace quote, not the least of which because the characters in the show are coming up on the age when it will be big stuff. They're already thinking about colleges and careers. They already know some of the ways in which they differ, not only from their parents, but from their peers as well. When they repeat, "Someday, I'll make you hear," there ought to be a shudder from the audience at just how the kids could make themselves heard. Not all of the ways that kids (and adults) can find to be heard are positive, and in fact, rather a lot of them aren't. Joining a rock band is among the more tame ways, to be honest.<br />
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And it's not just kids who need to be heard, although they certainly should be. No, it's not just kids--it's all of us. Humans need to be seen and acknowledged and heard, at every age. Everyone deserves to know that they're important, not because of their talents or money or charm, but because they're human. I suspect if the parents in the show felt more listened to by their own peers, they might have had a greater capacity to listen to their children in turn. (Except that one guy. He needs a Gibbs slap, and possibly a cartoon anvil.)<br />
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By the way, I know a lot of parents who do this extraordinarily well, and while I respect their privacy enough not to shout them out personally on a public blog post, I can't let this moment go by without at least saying this: Y'all, I see you. You and your kids are a blessing to us all. Keep up the good work.<br />
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Wanna make a difference in the world? Hear. See. Listen. Don't let another day go by without letting those around you know you care. And I'll do the same.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-36164238925320084612018-02-28T05:00:00.000-05:002018-02-28T05:00:01.068-05:00Unconvinced<div class="tr_bq">
I watched rather a lot of television in February, thanks to the Winter Olympics. So much, in fact, that I think I'm all TV'd up until the French Open. While it's not a hobby that I'm into, I do at least admire other people's resolve to sit still for that long. </div>
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In the course of all that TV, I saw many, many car ads. That was a <i>lot</i> of car ads. Some of the tactics used to try to sell me a car are silly, some are funny, and some are downright wrong. For my amusement, I started keeping a mental list of all the people who were enlisted to sell me a car in the month of February:<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Sharlie is not impressed by all these attempts to replace<br />her. She doesn't have anything to worry about, of course.<br />Oh, by the way, the Ohio River just had its biggest flood<br />in 20 years.</td></tr>
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<blockquote>
Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.;<br />
Jesus, Moses, and Muhammad;<br />
Real people, not actors;<br />
Sesame Street Muppets;<br />
Six women on snowboards;<br />
Every Paralympian;<br />
Ashley Wagner;<br />
A high school band;<br />
William Henry Harrison; and<br />
(my personal favorite, by a car company that is <i>a sponsor</i> of USA Bicycling, for heaven's sake)<br />
Bicycles.</blockquote>
Needless to say, they were unsuccessful. Better luck next time, advertisers. Don't worry; I'm sure you convinced someone. Just not this someone.<br />
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You want to see a great ad, one I never got tired of seeing in two weeks of Olympics? <a href="https://youtu.be/YhqIOO1Km8A">Check out this one from St. Elizabeth healthcare</a>. My favorite is the young man struggling with his math homework who's ready to give it another shot after his dad says, "You got this." Love.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-49250944094841487572018-02-27T05:00:00.000-05:002018-02-27T07:22:04.993-05:00NamedTuesday is supposed to be my book day, but my book post for this week <a href="https://cheekyness.blogspot.com/2018/02/to-see-face-of-god.html">accidentally turned into a Sunday post instead</a>. So, here's a non-book-related story for you. I've thought about sharing it before but have always held off, just in case the day I tell it is the day that my dad's side of my family all suddenly start reading my blog. (If they are already, then they're being very very quiet about it, which is... unlike us.) But I finally got a chance to tell this story to the relevant cousin at our uncle's funeral, so I no longer feel weird about sharing.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Every time I think the suggested pics<br />
on the free images site couldn't get<br />
weirder, it manages to outdo itself.<br />
Searching for "name" is no exception.<br />
I truthfully wasn't expecting to find<br />
one that was usable, but lo and<br />
behold. Source: <a href="https://www.freeimages.com/photo/hello-my-name-is-1244204">blogmonkey on<br />freeimages.com</a>.</td></tr>
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When I took Chadwick's name when we got married, it was not a decision I took lightly. It wasn't a matter of course for me, even though it probably seemed like it was to anyone who didn't get to be there for my months of back-and-forth. Essentially, it boiled down to this: I liked his name better than my own. Wilcox it was going to be.<br />
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But then along came a day, a decade and a degree each later, when I was about to earn my MA, and I pointed out to Chad that while both of our BAs had <i>his </i>family's name on them, my own family (I was the first of my grandparents' descendants to go to college, although #2 was right on my heels) had no such honor in our house. Chadwick agreed that this was pretty unfair and that my granddad's name should get equal representation.<br />
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We were still talking through what that was going to look like--I knew I wanted both my last names hyphenated on my MA, but beyond that I hadn't decided whether to use both names professionally from then on or just stick with Wilcox. I for sure didn't want to have to write fourteen letters plus a hyphen every time I signed my name, so it wasn't going to be a formal change. But you all know what happened next--Chadwick died suddenly three months before my graduation date, and that settled it. There would be no hyphenating or honoring anyone else's legacy apart from his and mine with my diploma. My cousin who was only a year away from earning a JD already carries the family name, with no hand-wringing required. He could represent for all of us.<br />
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So I told him this after the funeral, and added, "Thanks for having my back," and we had a little chuckle over that. The family legacy is better off in his hands, anyway. I would probably just drop it and accidentally break bits off.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">No, no, no. I'm not spelling it like that.<br />
Source: <a href="https://www.freeimages.com/photo/street-sign-1444355">Grant Oyston on freeimages.com</a>.</td></tr>
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Various relatives have taken turns, and my grandmother more turns than anyone, at asking if I'll ever get married again. Not having a crystal ball, I don't know the answer to that, but if it does happen it won't be any time in the foreseeable future. I can't imagine opening my heart that much a second time, not when it's already fractured. But this much I know for sure: I'm not changing my name again. I'm leaving this earth a Wilcox.<br />
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Because Chadwick's legacy is safe in my hands.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-40024779701690976572018-02-26T05:00:00.000-05:002018-03-11T16:56:29.899-04:00DisruptionI'm not certain that there's anything in our 21st century that <i>isn't</i> a disruption, despite the tech industry's relentless quest to claim the word for their own. (Of all the things to pick as a buzzword... but as has been pointed out by many, it does sound slightly less aggressive than "breaking.")<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"> Because whose brain isn't filled to<br />
overflowing? <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/324188873149521851/">Source</a>.</td></tr>
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So when life gets disrupted, by a tough week at work or a school schedule or an unexpected basically anything, there are things that are quick to go. I don't know what yours is, although for many people, exercise is on that list. (Mine also includes reading, writing, and all my crafty things. Which makes me wonder what the heck I'm doing instead, since those are the only things I do.)<br />
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The problem I have, and maybe you do, too, is that letting exercise go first just disrupts things more. I need running to keep my emotions on an even keel, to sleep better at night, to sort through angst and troublesome thoughts, and generally to be more fun to be around. So to allow that outlet to be disrupted is, in fact, even more disruptive. Maybe your outlet is your favorite TV show, or writing in a journal, or playing a game of solitaire with real cards. Maybe you don't know what your outlet is.<br />
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Your mental health matters. Your self-care matters. And while things get disrupted and there's nothing that can be done about it, the "first to go" list may need some tweaking. Maybe things get rearranged. Maybe you have a friend you can call in a hurry. Maybe your outlet needs a couple backups that are portable and flexible enough to go along with you in the daily scramble.<br />
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I'll be headed out to run in a little while, because if I don't, my day is already disrupted.Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8552468.post-32893421714297417522018-02-25T05:00:00.000-05:002018-07-04T11:53:56.876-04:00To See the Face of GodLast week, I picked up <i>A Million Miles in a Thousand Years</i> again and have been re-reading it. You know, because when you have 1000 books on your to-read list, and 30 on the real, live to-read shelf in your living room, why wouldn't you reread something instead of trying something new?<br />
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There's probably a whole post in that last sentence, but it is not today's post.<br />
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So! Reading <i>A Million Miles</i>, which is all about the story we're writing with our lives, always reminds me of bishop from <i>Les Misérables.</i> Now there's a guy who was living a great story. His treatment in the musical version is brief but beautiful:<br />
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Now seems like a good time to say that this version, while great (Colm Wilkinson! What's not to love about that guy?), has nothing on the stage version. <a href="https://cheekyness.blogspot.com/2015/07/here-they-sang-about-tomorrow.html">Ramin Karimloo as Valjean</a> in the scene with the bishop remains one of the most powerful couple minutes of theatre I've ever seen. This is a moment that is best experienced live, and if you're very very lucky, from close enough to the stage to clearly see the actors' faces.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">In rehearsal and on Broadway. I don't have the words for how incredible<br />
Ramin was in this scene. (Adam Monley as the bishop also amazing.) The<br />
whole plot of forgiveness and redemption really begins right here.<br />
Image sources: <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/479000110342872754/">Rehearsal</a>, <a href="https://www.broadway.com/shows/les-miserables/photos/les-miserables-show-photos/197934/les-miserables-show-photos-314-adam-monley-ramin-karimloo">Broadway</a>.</td></tr>
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Anyway, the bishop--Monsieur Myriel--lived an amazing story, and it's that story that he invites Valjean into when they meet. My beloved Signet Classics edition of <i>Les Misérables</i> has 1460 pages. I don't usually recommend that people read the whole thing--it's quite a slog for the modern reader and you have to really hang in there through some completely unrelated and quite lengthy chapters--but Monsieur Myriel is the star of the first 104 pages. If you want to read about someone who used his life to write a great story, that's the part you should read.<br />
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To love another person is to see the face of God. But the better task, I think, is to choose to see the face of God when we see those standing before us. Seeing the face of God on someone else will surely call me to <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mark+12%3A30-31&version=ESV">love that person as myself</a>--as a human being, as a fellow traveller on this planet, as someone else who is also doing the best that she (or he) can to navigate a world gone mad. A great story, indeed.<br />
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<i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Edited to remove </span><a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2015/08/30/nyregion/kyle-jean-baptiste-actor-in-les-miserables-dies-in-fall.html" style="font-size: small;">a video of Kyle Jean-Baptiste as Jean Valjean</a><span style="font-size: x-small;"> that is no longer available on YouTube.</span></i>Suhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11862479925124552922noreply@blogger.com0