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Some days have themes. I don't necessarily post something in each of these topic areas every week.

Sunday: Church-related or spiritual things.
Monday: Running.
Tuesday: Books.
Wednesday: Transportation.
Friday: Green living.

06 January 2011

Gloom, Despair, and Agony on Me.

I've spent most of my holiday break reading (and reading, and reading, and reading). Which has been glorious and fun. But you know the side effect of this much reading?

At some point, I'm bound to think, "I can't write like this," and go drown my sorrows in hot cocoa and Days of Our Lives reruns. Because while being in the presence of greatness is awe-inspiring, it's also a signal to my already-addled brain to give it up and quit while I'm ahead. Set myself up for a "I coulda been a contenda" moment in my distant future. Lose myself so much in other people's characters that I can forget, for a little while, about my own.

But, as I drain the dregs of my cocoa and drag myself from the pit of despair, I consider that surely I can write better that whoever is on the payroll at Days, and return to my computer. Well, my desk; I'm still plotting on my NaNo novel (I have to give it a different name now, I should think). Yes, there is still a lot of white space on there. I'm doing my best to remember all I've heard/read/learned in the past couple of months and give Natasha a lot more drama that I'm willing to have in my own life. But I'm also trying to remember to make her at least a little bit likeable, because as things stand right now, she may well be a complete jerk.

So. That's what I'm doing this week. How about you?


Meredith said...

Oh man, I know the feeling. Reading great novels can be inspiring, in that they give you something to shoot for, but many times they just depress me because they point out my shortcomings. But I think even the best writers out there think that way sometimes. The only thing to do is to keep writing, keep honing. At least that's what I'm telling myself! :)

L.A. Colvin said...

I know exactly what you mean. I'm new to writing so I threw myself into it day in and out. Then I took a break and read a couple books on my TBR list and I wanted to cry. Then I remembered what someone told me. EVERY published book your reading started out as one big hot mess. Then it went through at least 2 revisions, agents, editors, copy editors and who knows how many times it was changed before it became the pretty, neat, highly intelligent book your reading. Keep writing. You can't fix what you don't finish. And believe you have a great story to tell and you will.

Su said...

Yay, I'm glad it's not just me. Thanks!

erica and christy said...

Go, Su.

And I really want to know what the pit of dispair is like. really. tell me. details.

Su said...

They play a lot of soap opera reruns there.