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It's worrying when I can't conjure up emotions, not even at a time when it would be appropriate. Not even when it's expected.
Except. Except except except. I managed some (okay, quite a lot of) emotion when I saw the screening of Allegiance earlier this week. Is this what I've come to, that I can only experience emotion when other people are performing it? Is this why other people like TV so much? (I've always had books, so TV's pull is fairly minimal and a bit of a mystery to me.) Are we all just flatlining on our own emotions and substituing someone else's pretend ones?
I hope not. I hope this is a thing that passes, as it always has before. Because I'm not convinced that a flat life is worth getting out of bed for.
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This is whay depression does to me. Then, I get angry. I pray for you daily and hope you will find your smile again very soon.
Thank you, my friend! Realistically I know there are a lot of causes for this blank feeling, but it always scares me when it happens.
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